Cold

Minnesota is cold. Damn cold. This is nothing new, but I forget how cold cold can be until I actualy witness how the cold can grip you and cut straight to the bone.

But the warmth is also there, a warmth I do find lacking in NYC. I sometimes forget that it can be extremely easy to laugh, and laugh hard. I can tap into a level of confidence and comfort that I don't seem to be able to always get to in NYC.

Humph.

There are certain things that make me so sad, certain things that I don't allow myself to have, that I deny myself. Why is that?

The is a grand pillow fight in Union Square on Saturday at 2pm and I'm going to miss it.

Humph.

Nice bartender (?) purchased our table a round of car bombs last night. That was good.

Going out to dinner with 2 couples tonight. There will actually be 7 people at the table as both women are "with child." Ah, the world of bumps.

Last note: Jake showed me Yatta! today. I was unfamiliar with this new "fad" of Japanese culture. Wow. We realy did a number on their psyche, didn't we?

Choices

Sometimes you have to do things that you don't want to do. That is life, isn't it? You have to make a choice based on your knowledge and your heart. You have to weight these things and balance them.

Time is pissing me off. I want a crystal ball. Or to go back. But that's not he way it works.

I really want to bring people joy, and not pain. They say that pain is just part of it, that love can conquer all. But I'm tired of that. (Not of love, just the pain part.)

So, I need to figure out how to focus both inward and outward. I need to figure out how to truly open myself to others. And to myself.

So, I am back on that lonely road again. Back on this idiotic quest.

Bits and Pieces

Just tiny crumbs of things. The big things are not public things, so you just get the tiny ones.

I've been singing "Cheney's got a gun" in my head all day.

My Tivo did some massive upday thing. Not I can get internet radio and podcasts and it has two games and I can get moie tickets. I'm not a hundred percent I'll use any of this features, not it's nice to watch the slow creep of progress.

I get to see some massively great friends this week. And freeze my ass.

But I've frozen my ass here. We finally got snow here. Last year's blizzard seemed more massive to me. Perhaps it's just that I don't have to dig out a car anymore.

It doesn't look like Brooklyn's attempt to break the world record for The Largest Snowball Fight will happen this year. Insurane issues (and the fact that we've had no snow). Hopefully by next year.

Rollergirls is a curious show for me. Strange filter, I guess. I find it fascinating and truthful, but I'm just not sure that it can be understood by people who haven't seen "behind the curtain." And perhaps if they ARE "behind the curtain" they are too close to understand it.

I am enjoying this season of Survivor so far. I like the twist of Exile Island, even if it is a bit cheesetastic. Gamewise, it adds to the whole thing.

I have found myself with absolutely no desire to follow the Olympics. Absolutely none.

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